Hey how are you? I highly doubt you will see this. But who cares, I’m going to let my feelings out. I loved you so much, so so very much. You meant everything in the world. I introduced you to my parents, family, and friends. I promised you so much, and until the day I die, my promises shall be kept. We aren’t together anymore. And I realize what I did to you was horrible. You thought I didn’t love you as much as I said I did. Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I meant it that much as well. But as time went on, and as we stopped talking. I realized I did love you as much as I claimed I did. If I hadn’t loved you, I wouldn’t have risked my parents knowing about us. I wouldn’t have taken the time to introduce to you all my friends and family. I wouldn’t have told you the truth when I needed to. You tell me we’re just going to stay friends from now until forever. Hah, forever. I used to not believe in ‘forever’. It lost it’s meaning when my bestfriend left me. Yeah I told you the story already. Remember? Anyways, you gave me a purpose to give that word meaning. Because I really did want to be with you forever. I had our lives planned out, we would have gotten married, had children and a dog. I know I don’t deserve you. I never did. Yet you gave me your heart, and let me into your mind. But I threw away what we had. I shredded your heart for one moment of pleasure. I ruined our future. A bright and promising future. I know I shouldn’t, but I still do. I love you. I love you so very much. I miss your smiles, your hugs, your kisses, your everything. I miss the warmth of you glances, and the happy hellos. I miss you teasing me for my word choice, and for the little things I do. Ah, I miss everything we had. I still can’t believe I broke your heart.
Well, now we’ve both moved on. Our lives have changed. We still talk and all, but every time I see you. The memories we shared play in my mind. Like a movie. You tell me you want my next boyfriend to treat me right, and that you hope I’m happy with whoever I chose. I tell you, I hope you find a girl who won’t hurt you like I did. I tell you that I hope you will have a bright and happy future.
I guess, this is goodbye. I don’t want to think about what we had anymore. Because every time I reminisce, I cry my heart and soul out. So, from today on. Our memories will be erased. Not because they were the happiest times of my life. But because I lost the best thing that happened to me. And losing you, was the hardest thing of my life. I’m pretty sure it’s always going to be. I’m so sorry for what I’ve done. And what I’m doing. Just know, I will always love you. Just as I promised. Thank you.
Love, Your ex-girlfriend.
PS. I love you.
